“It’s not you, it’s me”
How many times have we heard the phrase “it’s not you, it’s me”
Since being diagnosed with Endometriosis, I find myself using that phrase more often when it comes to relationships 😞
As soon as I get my period or an endo flare up, I’m in so much pain. Sometimes I can’t verbalize how I’m feeling, other times I’m so exhausted and can’t respond to a text or even talk; and that includes FaceTime. Most of the time I just want to be by myself. My phone goes on silent, I’m under my sheets in bed and I need space 😩
I definitely don’t want to come across as rude or have someone thinking that I have ghosted them, when that’s not the case…..but it’s an honest struggle of dealing with chronic pain and having to show up for someone you care about. It can be difficult to balance, especially when the relationship is new and you haven’t opened up about your condition.
I find myself saying, “it’s not you, it’s me” but what I’m really trying to say is:
“I’m sorry that I’ve been distant, I have been going through a lot of chronic pain due to Endometriosis….”
(and hopefully at that moment I will have the courage to explain what Endo is and how it affects me 🙏🏾)
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